Monday, February 19, 2007

HOMEYY-HOMEYY!!
i'm dreammingg about it everyday!!
yea right-

well. not exactly.
i'm just glad i can finally eat all the food that i'm missing.
and the friends that i've missed so much for 3months.
hmm. not looking forward to the awful humid and hot weather though.
i have to leave when the weather's just about getting better.

i can go out with a normal blouse, a shirt and a winter jacket.
when i usually used to wear a long sleeve, a woolen, a fleece, a jacket and a winter jacket.
that's how bad it used to be.

and my face is stil peeling no matter how much moisturizer i put on.
the knuckles have cracks, the fingers are dried up.
but i stil like it here.

i wish it was a more recognised and developed country.
i'll definitely stay on.
stupid visa crap and i'vegotta go home.
i DONT WANT TO stay HOME ALONE xfrowns-

stupid man gave me visa until the 22nd.
crappo.
tell about it more when i get back.
and the pictures too.
heheheh. bring it back to show u.
beats putting it up here somehow x)

wellwell.
think i've got enough time here too.
i'll miss the people that i've got to meet.
they're so sweet. awwwe.
aweeesoommmee friends i've made during the time here.
ohwells. its like i'm living in somewhere made up
and its finally time to get back into reality.

i cant imagine the airport.
what its gonna be like.
dang-

hmm. on the other hand.
cant wait to get back.
my tv at home is still spoilt!
crapioos.
i'm going back to a house with no tv.
ohgee.
i'd rather be watching russian tele.

and... i've been soccer-natic with all the spanish leagues they show here.
real madrid, barcelona and valentia.
hmm. bar just lost to val a few mins ago.
ohman. tragic.
saw beckham play yesterday! heheh.

the sleepless night yest nearly killed me.
gosh.
i think i'm feeling all weird up cus' i'm going home.
i dunno.
insomnia.
it sucks the most when i'm bloody tiredd but its
impossible to fall asleep.
pls let it be a better tonight.

well.
gotta adjust back to the fast footsteps and all the nonstop rushing.
ARGGHHHHHH.
cant stand the thought.
sheesh.
i DONT WANA LEAVE ALONE AND LIVE ALONE!!
what a dilemma.

i wonder what mum will say if i tell her i wana go home..
pack up everything and come over here to study.
nonononono.
i cant.
gee.
i'll just be glad that i've got a chance to come here and see what its like.
something like back to the past kinda feeling.
ancient living. okay.not that bad.
but just somewhat the very starting of a developing country.

just whattheheck am i talking.
spouting nonsense already.
taking incessantly.
gotta stop before i go haywire and even more crankked up.

i hate goodbyes.
-the thought of never returning is worse-
it drives me nuts. honestly.